"Irritable! That's how I regularly feel!" And on checking with my wife, she concluded. Peculiar as it may appear we both realised something wasn't right, separately, on the same day, after 18 months of struggle.
Because of the realisation the consuming outrage that would rise up without warning was actually a sign that I was reaching my end - I was depressed. What a revelation that was; to grasp there had been a way out, but that that way out meant admitting my weakness. And then an irony appeared; the moment I confessed my need for help, in that moment - that actual moment - hope drew near.
Bad temper is a tell-tale sign of depression, especially in males.
Something would go 'wrong ' and I would flip into a rage, regardless of whether I was alone or no-one else spotted; within me I was beside myself with fury. And at the same time part of me was asking, in a desperate state of perplexity, "What's going on here, Steve?!"
Such fits of wrath were tiring, and though happily there had been generally no perceivable harm created, there was much non secular torture that wanted to be reconciled. I was beyond control and didn't know how to restore that control.
But the word irritation - or testy - got me wondering. It struck me in a second of openness of heart and mind. God used that word to bare his truth. My bad temper with the sign I was depressed. I had fought the best I could, in my very own strength, for 18 months. Now was the time to truly admit my weakness and find help.
WHY Outrage Is Sometimes THE SIGN OF DEPRESSION
Why would we get immoderately indignant otherwise, unless our inner world was in turmoil?
Sometimes outrage is all we have left to rail against a world we will be able to neither understand nor work with. That world, for who knows what reason or reasons, has given us cause to feel rejected in some form. All we have left is fury. And self-righteousness is the driver, because justice has not been served - according to the depressed mindset.
Outrage reveals unhappiness for the difficulties of contempt in our lives we have no control of. And it does not take a lot to feel beyond control.
When we admit our sadness nevertheless , as we have realised the role resentment is playing, the path to recovery opens up - despite the despair within our circumstance. When there is a requirement, get pro help to help you, before it has effects on your life and make you ned up in debt for cultivating unacceptable habits!
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Uncharacteristic bad temper can be a sign of the sadness of depression. Occasionally all we have left is annoyance; but upon realising our need for help, to admit that, opens a path to recovery. If we are honest about anger we may see the sadness beneath. Such sadness is an invitation to be explored, to be validated, and to be wrestled with. As soon as we do these things the door to hope swings ajar and then completely open.
Because of the realisation the consuming outrage that would rise up without warning was actually a sign that I was reaching my end - I was depressed. What a revelation that was; to grasp there had been a way out, but that that way out meant admitting my weakness. And then an irony appeared; the moment I confessed my need for help, in that moment - that actual moment - hope drew near.
Bad temper is a tell-tale sign of depression, especially in males.
Something would go 'wrong ' and I would flip into a rage, regardless of whether I was alone or no-one else spotted; within me I was beside myself with fury. And at the same time part of me was asking, in a desperate state of perplexity, "What's going on here, Steve?!"
Such fits of wrath were tiring, and though happily there had been generally no perceivable harm created, there was much non secular torture that wanted to be reconciled. I was beyond control and didn't know how to restore that control.
But the word irritation - or testy - got me wondering. It struck me in a second of openness of heart and mind. God used that word to bare his truth. My bad temper with the sign I was depressed. I had fought the best I could, in my very own strength, for 18 months. Now was the time to truly admit my weakness and find help.
WHY Outrage Is Sometimes THE SIGN OF DEPRESSION
Why would we get immoderately indignant otherwise, unless our inner world was in turmoil?
Sometimes outrage is all we have left to rail against a world we will be able to neither understand nor work with. That world, for who knows what reason or reasons, has given us cause to feel rejected in some form. All we have left is fury. And self-righteousness is the driver, because justice has not been served - according to the depressed mindset.
Outrage reveals unhappiness for the difficulties of contempt in our lives we have no control of. And it does not take a lot to feel beyond control.
When we admit our sadness nevertheless , as we have realised the role resentment is playing, the path to recovery opens up - despite the despair within our circumstance. When there is a requirement, get pro help to help you, before it has effects on your life and make you ned up in debt for cultivating unacceptable habits!
***
Uncharacteristic bad temper can be a sign of the sadness of depression. Occasionally all we have left is annoyance; but upon realising our need for help, to admit that, opens a path to recovery. If we are honest about anger we may see the sadness beneath. Such sadness is an invitation to be explored, to be validated, and to be wrestled with. As soon as we do these things the door to hope swings ajar and then completely open.
About the Author:
Peggy Chen is a mechanical engineer in The East overseeing the implementationg and troubleshooting of plants reporting budgeting and ideas. During her off days she likes to do some travelling and sight seeing. Grounded and honest personality she makes a good buddy and consultant to folks round her.
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